说好了如果你要走就放你走，不会怪你不会怎样的，可是还是忍不住
都怪自己耳朵软
听什么想什么
然后偏偏搞得自己不开心
不开心了就为自己愤愤不平，然后去找你要解释
我真的没有想要伤害你，想要怪你
原来我真的说过你把我当成玩具，还不止一次
即是只是无奈愤恨下，被你看到了还是伤害你了
i know it is useless to say sorry now.
but what can I do?
I really din mean to hurt u.
I just.. I hate betrayed and I cant really let it go.
I cant stop thinking about why did u betray me and lie to me all these while.
I just.. I am just a girl who cant handle this well.
I know I am at fault and I cant blame u.
I dont want to blame u anymore coz last time i blame u for too much ald.
I want to make it up for u, this time, by respecting ur decision and live with it and without complaining.
shit. I nearly succeed. But it failed when I read her blog and the empathy arosed when I read some part.
I shouldnt come to you even if it is unbeareable and haunted me ever when I closed my eyes.
I shouldnt scold u and blame u.
It makes me feel worse when I see u angry and the dislike tone.
Still, I din do what I promise, stop hurting u again.
I know u do not like me anymore, and wont care about how I feel anymore
but I should just live with it because it is normal and love cannot be judged as right or wrong.
Still, I am not mature enough. To handle all these.
I should just bear the unbearable, live with it and one day the wound will heal.
Stupid me.
I know u wont accept my apology and it doesnt make a difference to u.
Coz I am not important to u anymore and U dont want to believe in me anymore.
I am sorry.
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listen to wat ppl say is easy thing.
Still, I am defeated to differentiate what to believe and what shouldnt
I should have master how to see what is real and what is false and shouldnt believe or should choose not to believe it.
I am such a failure that hurt ppl and myself.
I hate this man.
shit...
再多的对不起都换不回的信任，让我只剩无奈
伤很深
可是说好了要自己承受就必须自己承受
却还是因为一点小事而破功了
我需要观众支援
要自己不要太冲动
